Why is it so hard to be enough? It sure sounds good. That warm feeling that nothing needs to change, that everything is just as it should be, that you are just as you should be. Accepting our humanity and fallibility confronts us with one of the great paradoxes of our condition: if we are enough, then why strive to be better?
We are creatures of action, everything that we have built, everything that we have achieved, is predicated on the antithesis of being enough – a constant conflict between the acceptance of our faults and our desire to improve upon them. Striving and being. These are like two poles, two ends of one stick that must be carefully balanced.
The illusion of control is like a bottomless pit, you will always fall deeper and want more of that fleeting feeling, leaving you in a constant state of restlessness, a state of fear. The paradox of consciousness is accepting your lack of control while at the same time trying to be better.
Striving and being. Two forces that collide with each other, creating the friction that is our life. The balance must be maintained and respected. Work towards a better self, but not to your determent. Know which things to accept, and which things you can change. But tip the scales, and you will live in heaven or hell.